When all else fails, plank!

Yes, plank your ass off because when I plank my ass off, I sweat like a mofo and feel strong and brave.

And these days, sadly, I'm feeling more scared and puny than I ever thought possible.  And these feelings show up a lot at work.  I feel like I'm killin it every where else but at work, I'm sharing my workload for the first time in 2 years.  And I don't like what it's bringing out in me (think Mean Girls, 8th grade all over again, inclusion/exclusion dance).  At least I can recognize it, right?

And thank God for the workout today because I was in my head space of feeling puny when I went into the little gym at work, and worked my ass off.  And seriously, I can think of nothing else that makes me feel more badass then hoisting my 240 lb frame up on one elbow and rocking the shit out of some side planks...THREE TIMES.

As for the eating to 80% full, I had no idea that I associated fullness with contentment, security, safety until I tried to eat to 80% fullness the first night.  Then I just kinda had a meltdown.  I'm working on it and have always been one of those, "eat because it's time to eat" instead of eating for hunger.  Every now and then, the planets align and I get to eat because it's time to eat and I'm hungry.  Most of the time, I eat because I've heard, "you don't run a car on an empty tank, the same with your stomach".  Still taking my time eating and that part is getting waaaaaay easier.  The eating until 80% full is taking a time because it's just a different way of thinking.  I'll get it...I just have to pay attention even more when I'm eating now...which, if I"m honest, is kind of a buzz kill.  But a necessary one.